WHY DO I STILL FEEL DISQUALIFIED?

I don't know. It was strange. You you looked you looked at what you had to bring him and you decided And I maybe I put this different, I guess. It's coming out sounding weird, but like much what of much of what I say. You look at what you had possessed, the ability to give, to bring him. And you decided it wasn't enough. You decided it wasn't enough faith, not enough discipline, not enough of a track record to justify walking up to the door. So you've been standing back, holding your two small things, watching everything everybody else. You have small things. You're not wealthy. You don't have a lot. You watch everybody walk in with the the premier item is the perfect lamb. I want to show you eight verses this morning that most people skip. Because buried in them is a provision God placed in his Torah for every mother who couldn't afford the standing offering. The standard offering. The standard offering was the perfect lamb. You know, he raised it for a year. He made sure it was perfect. More than a thousand years later, a young woman in Nazareth, she'd need exactly that provision. He'd already made the way. And in the way he made for her, he made one for you. So this is true word, faith for life with Dr. Sean, S-H-A-W-N. This is the YouTube channel. We have about 4,000 subscribers. That's the one you want to subscribe. Click on the little bell for all notifications. Click on the thumbs up. So you don't miss a thing. I'm Sean. This is what we're doing. We're doing this daily walk through the whole story of God. If it's feeding you, well, guess what? The book, True Word Faith for Life. It's my second book. It's available at TruewordFaithforLife.com under the store. Why not grab a copy? Maybe two. It will help you. Everyone who has read it, who has reached out to me, has said this has been a massive blessing. You're going to laugh and you will cry. On the way, you're going to learn stuff you never knew you'd learn, and you're going to learn it without even trying. So, the other thing that's in the store is Mooseworks Bible rebinding. She's not a sponsor. You say, Well, why are you doing it? Because I think people ought to know about what she does and how great she does it. She made these for me. She made six of them. I can't show you all six of them because I don't have time. This is just two of them. Uh, six of them will be, they're already pre-lined out. I'm not well. So they're already pre-lined out to give, pass down. I have a Bible collection, but these are the ones that I interact with the most. So anyway, I want them to last a forever time. So all that being said, these are the ones that I want to do. I might do other ones as I'm able to afford it, but there's two more I can think of that I think, uh, I'd really like somebody to have those. Um eventually, you know, it'll be passed on, passed on my whole collection. But these are the ones that I interact with the most. Anyway, Bible reminding is up there up there too. So I just encourage you to really get into it because it's beautiful stuff. And I, you know, what she does is amazing. If you want a Bible to last forever, that's the one. So here we are. Right? Leviticus 12. Grab your Bible if you have it. Here's one for the chat before we open it. I want you to think about this because I had to really, you know, I had to really grab the pen. My wife made me this pen. She made me that. Brian and and her sister, Claire helped her. That's what they do. Anyway, I have to say, get your pen. Get your little fingers ready to type on the old board here. Somebody says, What do you have that rag? What's that rag? What do you use this for? I use it for cleaning my glasses. I have a brain injury and I can't have anything on my glasses. Otherwise, my eyes will automatically go to it. I don't have an on an autonomic system the way I had before. And so, anyway, yeah, there's that. So here's one for the chat before we just dive in. In one word, which feeling most often keeps people standing back from God? Which feeling? One word, we're looking for one word. Which feeling often keeps people standing back from God? Shame, failure, fear, exhaustion? Maybe it's something else. If you're comfortable, drop that word into the chat. Whether it's live chat, uh, thank you all for joining us. Um, whether it's live chat or comments. And um I'd I'd love to love to talk with you about it if it's something that you feel like you want to talk about. So we're going straight at it today. Straight at it. So we need something we learned last time right away, Tamai. Unclean doesn't mean sinful, doesn't mean disgusting. It doesn't mean God is repulsed by you. It describes a temporary condition that makes someone unfit for a time to approach a sacred space. Hold on to that because today, today is the chapter where people forget it. So, Leviticus 12. It's eight verses long. It's about a woman who is just given birth. Ready? The Lord tells Moses that when a woman bears a son, she's ceremonially unclean for seven days. On the eighth day, the boy is circumcised. Then she continues in the blood of her purifying for thirty-three more days, and during that time she doesn't touch anything holy or come into the sanctuary. When a daughter is born, the periods are doubled. Fourteen days and then sixty-six. When the days are fulfilled, she brings an offering to the priest at the door of the tent of meeting, a lamb for a burnt offering, and a young pigeon or a turtle dove for a sin offering. And then verse 8. The verse this whole thing turns on. If she cannot afford a lamb, she brings two turtle doves or two young pigeons instead. Let's deal honestly with what this chapter makes people feel, because there's a fair objection here. God told humanity to be fruitful and multiply. That was the first blessing he ever spoke. And now a woman obeys that blessing, does the hard, I mean, really honestly, the hardest physical work a human body can do brings a life into the world. And the text calls her unclean. That sounds like God calling motherhood undirty or dirty. Well, here's the thing: it's not calling, God is not calling motherhood dirty. And listen, the uninitiated, the people who don't seek any deeper, any further, they're perfectly happy believing that. They're perfectly happy misunderstanding scripture because they don't want to know the ancient Near Eastern language, culture, and context. That's what I'm here for. They'll listen instead of throwing insults and stupid things that make them sound stupid. You know, they'd learn a little something. But I got to tell you, there's a lot of preachers out there that don't know what these things actually mean. And I don't want to be too hard on them. I don't want to be too hard on them because how they were taught is how they were taught. And again, that's that's why I'm here. I love to help. So that God, God is not calling women dirty. And the last lesson is exactly why. To me, it'sn't a moral verdict. It's a category about approaching holy space. And many readers have noticed a pattern. What makes a person to me across Leviticus? Contact with a dead body, certain discharges, blood. Again and again, it gathers around the places where mortal life is most visibly exposed, where life enters the world or leaves it, the text doesn't spell out the reason. So we hold the explanation humbly. Or so we should. But the shape is hard to miss. God sends a, He sets this temporary boundary around those moments before a person walks into the presence of the God who has no beginning, no end, and no death in him at all. That isn't shame. That's reverence. A woman who's just given birth isn't dirty. She has stood at the doorway through which life entered the world. Come on, somebody say amen. Now, the double time for a daughter. Look, I'm not going to skip it and pretend it's simple. People will throw rocks at it. Believers don't understand it, so they'll avoid it. And unbelievers who want to trip people up and make them think that this is all just a fairy tale and we have a sky daddy and all of that. Well, that's not what it is. That's not what it is. So scripture doesn't explain it. They don't. This is the first honest thing to say. The text gives the numbers and offers no reason at all. And when scripture is silent, we don't get to invent a reason and preach it like it's revelation or prophecy. I prophesied. The Lord gave me a word. People have proposed explanations for centuries, and I'm not going to tell you which is right. Because God didn't tell you which is right. Why would I tell you which is right? I know what I think, but I don't know. I don't know. But here's what I'll tell you with confidence: whatever it means, it doesn't mean daughters are worth less. The same Torah that gives these numbers says God made male and female in his image. The same God who gave this chapter chose women to carry his promise, to hide his prophets, to fund his son's ministry, and to be the first witnesses of the resurrection. Don't build a doctrine of female inferiority. I knew I was going to stumble on that word. Speech therapist. Here's another word, inferiority. Don't make this some statement about female inferiority. It is not inferiority. He's not saying that. This is a verse that gives you a number and no explanation. That isn't exegesis. That's importing your own assumptions into God's silence. Come on, somebody. Shake your head, amen. Say it if you mean it. Look what else is buried in here. Verse 3, right in the middle of the timeline, almost in passing. On the eighth day, the boy is circumcised. That's the covenant sign given to Abraham. And here it is, tucked into the ordinary rhythm of family's first week. No ceremony described, no fanfare, just a father and mother doing on the eighth day what God said to do. Covenant faithfulness lived out in the exhausted blur of a home with a newborn in it. That's where most obedience actually happens, not on a mountain in week one, when nobody slept. You know how it is if you've had a child? You ain't sleeping. Well, then the offering. And I want you to notice something. She brings a lamb. She brings a lamb for a burnt offering. And a bird for what? The King James, some of you like to use that predominantly. What the King James calls a sin offering. And people stumble there because it sounds like she sinned by giving birth. But if you don't know the ancient Near Eastern language, culture, and context, Hebrew, Aramaic, and the true Koine Greek, you wouldn't know that it doesn't mean that at all. The Hebrew here is chetat, spelled chet eleph, tav. And here it functions as a purification offering. It addresses ritual impurity and restores ordinary access to sacred space. The woman's not being accused of moral wrongdoing for giving birth. She isn't confessing sin. They got it wrong in the King James. Why? I'll tell you why. I did a whole thing on the King James Version. My thoughts on it, a whole Bible review, whole translation review. You can look at it. It's on True Word, Faith for Life with Dr. Sean, S-H-A-W-N. It's free. You wouldn't understand it if you don't understand the ancient Near Eastern language, culture, and context. And you're not going to understand that unless you try hard. She's not confessing sin at all. She's being restored to the place where she can come near again. And that distinction matters because a lot of you have spent years confusing the two. You felt cut off from God and immediately assumed you must have sinned. I must have done something wrong. I'm cut off from God. You didn't sin. You just needed to be restored to the place where you can come near again. And a lot of times we just don't understand that. I'd say most of the time we don't understand it. But it's frustrating. I get it. You felt cut off from God. And the first thing in your mind was, I must have done something wrong. Listen, not every feeling of distance is a verdict. Like your spouse, you know, hey, you're being awful quiet. Is everything all right? No, I'm fine. It's fine. Sometimes it's not fine. Sometimes they say it's fine. It's not fine. But sometimes they say it's fine, and it is fine. And with God, not every feeling of distance is a verdict. Sometimes sin does need to be confessed, let's be honest. Or hurts, habits, and hang ups hangups are real. But sometimes sin it does need to be confessed, and we shouldn't pretend otherwise. But sometimes you're just exhausted. Maybe you're grieving, healing, or passing through a season, and it's changed to you what nearness feels like. Don't turn every stretch of depletion into some sort of divine sentence. Now verse 8. This is the one. Man, if you weren't listening before, listen now. Whatever's distracting you, push it out of your mind. Chat, just be still just a moment. I want you all to hear this. If you're listening on playback, don't allow any distractions to come into view. Focus. If she can't afford a lamb, she brings two birds instead. Think about what that means. God writes the price of obedience into law. He writes the price of obedience into the law. And in the same breath, he writes in a provision for the woman who can't pay it. Nobody in Israel is shut out of restored access because they're poor. The lamb is the standard, the birds are the mercy, and both are fully and equally accepted completely. Come on, somebody, say amen. Oh, well, put yourself in that picture. If you've written checks or you've put a $5, $10 bill in the in the in the communion, and that is 10% of your income for the week. And that's what you got. And you're given it. God looks at you equally to that person that's putting a $5,000 check in there. You think I'm kidding, I'm not. God made a way for the poorest woman in Israel to walk up to the door of the tent of the meeting and not be turned away. Now you see that's great. That's great about modern Israel. What about now? Oh, you're in luck. You're in luck. I want you to turn if you have your Bible and you're not driving. Don't touch your phone. Don't touch your if you're driving, don't touch anything. No texting and driving, no holding your phone while you're driving. They have all these little things to attach your phone to. You don't need it. Almost all cars are equipped with car play or something like that. You don't have to touch your phone. There's no need. Nothing is as important. Don't touch your phone if you're listening in your car. I implore you. Now, if you're in a position to be able to turn to Luke chapter 2 in the Bible, the New Testament, Matthew, Mark, Luke. It's a third one in. And don't be embarrassed. If you don't know where it is and you're new to a Bible, holding a Bible, maybe you've been a Christian your whole life, and you wouldn't know where to find Luke in the scriptures. You wouldn't know. You'd be like, I don't know. I suppose I should know that. But I don't. I get it. Don't feel ashamed. We're going to turn that around for you. Luke chapter 2. It should be just past the middle of the Bible. So Joseph and Mary, media, they bring the infant Yeshua to the temple to fulfill this exact chapter. And Luke tells us what they offered. They offered a pair of turtle doves or two young prison pigeons, pigeons. Yeah. Do you get what that means? Do you understand what Luke just told you? They brought the poor woman's offering. The mother of the Messiah couldn't afford the lamb. She came under verse 8, which means that more than a thousand years earlier, when God gave this chapter to Moshe or Moses, he had already written a provision into his own law for a young woman in Nazareth, 12 or 13 years old, who wouldn't be born for 14 centuries, and she wouldn't have the money. God wrote access for the poor into the Torah itself before she ever needed it. She couldn't afford the Lamb, so she carried him instead. Do you get that? She carried the Lamb of God who would be slain, his blood. Shed, his body tortured and put into a borrowed grave. And after three days, he would rise again. And he lives today at the right hand of the Father. You say, look, I want a way. I gotta have something that I can cling to that is. I don't know. I need to be able to do it. I need to be able to today. Okay. Okay. I hear you. Here it is. You say you want it. Here it is. Here's your step today. And it's specific. Take the one word that you dropped in the chat. If you were brave enough to do that, the one word you dropped in the chat, or maybe you wrote it down on your little notebook that you're keeping, little notes that you're keeping every day. Are you keeping notes every day? That's a good idea. I did a whole episode about that. Helps you really get it. You say, oh, I don't retain anything. Write some stuff down. Take some notes. Oh, I'm a terrible note taker. Nobody's a terrible note taker. There are lazy note takers and there are assertive, aggressive note takers. If you want to learn, you're assertive and you're aggressive. I teach how to take good notes, how to do it in a live sermon and a live teaching and in one that listen on playback. I teach how to do that. I'd be happy to help you. Listen, that one word that if you were brave enough, you wrote in the chat, that feeling, the feeling that's been keeping you back. And instead of letting it keep come on, hear this. Take this in. This is meant from a kind heart. The most unjudgmental heart. Instead of letting it keep you standing there one more day, do the smallest concrete thing a person who wasn't disqualified would do. Open the book you've been avoiding. Walk back into the room you left and you said, I'm not going back in there. Say the prayer you've decided you're not clean enough to say. Come with your two birds. Not real, because we love birds, but you know what I'm saying. Come with your offering. It doesn't have to be huge. The provision is already written. Do it today. Not once you feel ready today. Do it now. Because here's what kind of God we're dealing with here. He isn't standing at the door checking whether you brought something impressive. He wrote the alternative in himself because the alternative was used for his son Jesus while he was still in the womb. He anticipated the ones who would show up with less. And he made sure the poorest person in the room could still come near. He did that for his mother Medium, and he did it for you. That's the God who came to us as the son of a woman who could only afford two birds. Yeshua was born under the law, Paul says. The Apostle Paul or Shaol, New Testament, born of a woman, born under the law, to redeem those under the law. He didn't hover above the ordinances. He got inside them. He was circumcised on the eighth day, like this chapter says. He was a Jew, an observant Jew. He was raised as an observant Jew, as an adult, until he was murdered and tortured at age 33 for you and for me. He was and he still is an observant Jew. His mother went through her days of purifying, just like this chapter says, and the one who stepped into every temporary uncleanness of human life eventually reversed the direction it all traveled. Oh come on, somebody see him coming. Under Leviticus, impurity moved by contact, touched the unclean thing, and the uncleanness came to you. But impurity did not overcome Yeshua. Do you understand what I'm saying here? Impurity did not overcome Yeshua. He overcame it. When he touched the leper, the leper was cleansed. When the bleeding woman touched his garment, her uncleanness didn't didn't it didn't diminish him. His life restored her. Do you understand what I'm saying? There was a leper, and he touched the leper, and the leper was the most contagious disease of the time. When Yeshua touched the leper, which was forbidden, he touched him and he was healed of leprosy, as though it was never there. The woman with the issue of blood, she just bled constantly. She never stopped bleeding, and it made her unclean in her community, and no one would be friends with her. No one would be around her, so she was just shut out. She was an outcast. This poor, bleeding woman with the issue of blood, the Bible tells us for about 12 years. We don't know what the deal was. She had faith in him. I tell the story in detail in another episode. She had faith in Yeshua. She believed he would heal her. She said, if only I can touch the hem of his garment. And we talk about the weak faith that we have. We talk about the faith that we're so we say, no, it's gotta be up here. She believed if I could just touch the hem of his garment, the the uh tzit, the talit that comes down the little thing, the tzit. If I could just touch that, I believe he would heal me. She wasn't trying to accost him, she just knew if I touch him, he will heal me. And I'll be released from this. I don't have to live the way I have. I'm lonely, I'm shunned. Nobody wants any part of me. I have no women friends, nobody to hang out with at the well. I can't go to weddings, I can't go to temple. I just work and I go to draw water when nobody's there because no they all shun me. She had a horrible life. And she ran to him. Crowd was great, and she ran to Jesus, she ran to Yeshua, and all she did was touch his garment. Come on, somebody. Somebody. Good lands. And she was healed. Who touched me? I felt the power go out of me. Who touched me? There's a beautiful old hymn called He Touched Me. This is what that's about this passage, is what it's about. Look it up. It's beautiful. Oh, he touched me. Oh, it's beautiful. Listen. The life of Yeshua restored her and it can restore you. In Yeshua defilement doesn't have it does not have the final direction of travel. It doesn't. You say I'm a mess. I've lived such a messed up, jacked up, dirty life. You don't know, Dr. Sean. You don't know. I do know. Thank you to you all who have been so humble in the comments. God bless you. I'm proud of you. I know how hard some of that is. I don't know how else to explain this to you. I don't know your culture, I don't know where you're coming from. But I know this, I have for you today a challenge and a choice. Oh, you've got a choice today. You can keep standing back, holding your two small things, waiting until you've got a lamb. Well, I'll give when I have a lamb. I'll be I'll be um worthy when I have a lamb, but I have this just a little bit. You'll wait forever. If that's your plan, you'll wait forever. Because that day never comes. We are never worthy. Or having said that, you can believe that the door was built with people exactly like you, exactly like you, exactly like you, and exactly like me in his mind. And just walk up. The provision predates you. The provision was here before you ever arrived. Oh beloved. The only question is whether you'll use it. Prayer isn't asking for an easy journey, it's asking for a strong back. Pray with me today. Father, I thank you that you saw her coming. Heavenly Father, I thank you that before there was a temple, before there was Nazareth, before there was a young woman with two birds in her hand, you'd already written her into your law and made sure she would never be turned away. We confess. We've believed the distance was a verdict. We've felt far from you and assumed it meant you'd finally seen enough of us, enough of our sin, enough of our hurts, habits, and hangups. We've counted what we had to bring and decided it was too small. Heavenly Father, teach us the difference today between a season and a sentence. And for everyone standing back right now with empty hands, holding shame that was never ever theirs, Father, let today be the day they walk up. I pray this in Yeshua's name. Amen. Maybe you've spent years assuming you'd have to arrive with something worth showing him. Something cleaned up, something impressive. Impressive enough to justify the visit. And you've never come because you've never had it. I want you to hear this. The offering was already provided. Not the birds, not not the birds. Not the birds. I know you thought it was going there. Oh the birds. No. The lamb. That's what we call Yeshua Hamashiach, the lamb of God. The one Mary couldn't afford is the one she was carrying. Come on, you gotta get that. There's a beautiful song called Mary. Did you know? There's lots of people that cover it, but oh my. The one sung by David Phelps, it was written by Mark Lowry. The one sung by David Phelps is unreal. It's ethereal. The Lamb of God who was slain for my sins and for your sins, for your hurts, habits, and hang-ups, and for mine. When his mother, his dear mother, medium, Mary, she look, she had two birds because she couldn't afford a lamb. But Father God trusted her to carry the lamb, the light of the world, my Redeemer, your Redeemer, if you accept him into your heart. If you ask for forgiveness, he'll give it to you. If you ask him into your heart, he will come. She was carrying the lamb, and he was given for you before you ever thought to ask. You don't have to bring anything. You just have to come. I want you to pray this with me. And listen, I'm going to say something to the atheist trying to disrupt chat. I want to say this as kindly as I can. And some of you are just childish people who have nothing better to do. Or you you have more, you have better things to do. You're just not doing them. First of all, grow up. This life is what it is. And you can, if you're not theist, you can say, well, you know, you're silly for believing in your sky daddy, and you know, you need the sky Santa. Well, he's not that, and I don't believe he's either of those things. But he is my heavenly father. And eternity is coming for you. Eternity starts when our heart stops. I get it. You you won't admit it, but you're angry. You're hurt. There's all kinds of things swirling around in your head. And you say, I hate these Christians. Because they think they're better than anybody else. I don't think I'm better than anyone else. Not one person. I don't think I'm better than one person. I want you to understand that Yeshua, Jesus, he went to the cross, tortured, and he died for you too. I just wish that you would open your heart and accept him. I know. It would mean a massive change in your life. But I personally know people who were atheists. I personally know people and prayed with them who were Satanists. And they've come out of it, everyone. And they've said, I was so angry. I was so lost. I was so hurt. I was such a misfit. And these people took me in, the Satanists and the atheists, they took me in. I know we're over. This is worth it. You're worth it. Listen, everyone, everyone that I've ever led to the Lord, everyone I've ever interviewed has said the same thing. I was a hurting soul and I hid within Satanism. Because I didn't believe the story. Not that the story wasn't true, but that there's no way he would he would save me. There's no way he would accept me. There's just no way. As the thumbnail says, you're not shut out. I have led murderers to Christ. I'm happy to lead you. Pray this with me. Yeshua. That's Jesus' name, his real name. Yeshua, pray it with me and mean it. I need you. I believe you died for me and rose from the grave. I surrender my life to you today. Father, please forgive me. Fill me. Lead me. My life is yours. However that looks, my life is yours. In the name of Yeshua. Amen. Well, first of all, heaven is rejoicing. It's so loud you probably wouldn't need to hear plugs, probably wouldn't, because in heaven we're all perfect. And so we wouldn't need, we'd be loud, but we wouldn't need hearing loss because there would be no hearing loss. Not like what I have. Listen, if you prayed that today, tell someone. They may ridicule you. I said it's not, look, I'm not going to lead you down some primrose path that says now everything's going to be easy. I told you that coming in. But it'll be the best life you've ever lived. I'm telling you what. Tell someone today, publicly. You don't have to stand on a corner and shout, but if that's what you want to do, that's cool too. But tell someone without apology. You don't have to explain a bunch. Just tell them I place my faith in Christ today. They might look at you, even if they're family, they might look at you and go, you. Let it run it right off your back. They've done it for centuries. They'll do it for centuries more if we have that much time. Tell someone. Don't be ashamed. Please don't be ashamed. Stand tall. I know you don't know everything you need to know. You'll learn it. You'll learn it. True WordFaithforLife.com. Blog. They have study guides under all of them. There's so much there. There's back episodes. I've done thousands of episodes. Plus, you can reach out to me and I'll help you. Why not? I mean, why not? Tell someone. You came with empty hands, and that's exactly how he wanted you to come. He'll fill them every day himself. Find people who follow Yeshua and let them walk with you. Amen. If you want my help, I'll help you, and I'll be happy about it. Listen, she couldn't afford the lamb. She brought two birds, and God had already written the birds into the law for her. More than a thousand years before her empty hands, and the lamb she couldn't buy. Was the child asleep in her chest, against her chest? Listen, if this met you in your heart, send it to one person that you know has been standing back. I'm not asking you to send to a million, but put it on your social media if you're so bare, so brave. But if you can think of that one person you know who's been standing back because they don't think they have enough to bring, that God would never accept them. It might be the door opening for the change of life for them. And by the way, while you're at it, subscribe, turn the bell on all notifications, click the thumbs up so tomorrow finds you. I want you to hear this blessing in the original language of God. This is Lashon Hakodesh. This that means in Hebrew, the language of God. His language was and is Hebrew. Don't worry, because we'll know it in heaven. You ready? May the Lord bless you and keep you. May the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you. May the Lord lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace. Until the next time, Monday through Friday, 7 a.m. Eastern, Sundays at 6 30 p.m. Eastern time. We summarize the prior week and we lay it out. Until then. Shalom Bishem Yeshua.